Sitting in a CE (Continuing Education) with a roomful of others veterinarians, it is more than apparent to me and probably everyone else in the room, that I “suffer” from ADD or ADHD. I’m not trying to be disruptive or rude or distracting to anyone else, but the lecture is moving so slow, with much irrelevant minutia commentary and focus on obvious givens/knowns, that it is extremely hard for me to listen with continuous interest and intrigue. I wonder if the practicalities and true “message” of the lecture to the attendees, even crosses the minds of the lecturer and the majority of the other veterinarians. Don’t mistake my opinion, the lecturer is very knowledgable and at times, the information she is presenting is very relevant and intriguing, but this intrigue is buried in such boring, sauntering, and basic knowledge, it isn’t even funny. It feels like I’m sitting in a remedial class on veterinary cardiology where all the attendees arrived on a short bus. The crowd in general seems fairly happy and content, and I am happy for them, but they also make me feel like I’m sitting in my highschool class again, having thoughts, questions, comments, and observations in my mind that most of them can’t even begin to fathom. We all sit in a veterinary governing mandated CE that in this case is sponsored by a corporate owned national veterinary hospital chain, a corporate owned national laboratory company (same as the chain…oh yeah!), and a big pharmacy corporate company, but the innocent, kind, and knowledgeable face presenting the “respectable info” on stage is a veterinary specialist from North Carolina State University, an institution of higher learning. Nope, no,no way, nada, no entangling alliances in this lecture hall. Nothing to ever worry about here how veterinary medicine continues to be bastardized and centralized with such pretty velvet gloves. But, I’m probably just the ADD, ADHD kid, who is having a hard time listening and behaving like all the other good cattle. I should “relax and take something overridingly positive from the experience.” The funny thing that most don’t suspect is that I will. I will take significant positives from the experience. This commentary does not contradict such a thing, except again in the minds of most of the cattle. I process the positives and the negatives, the yin and yangs, the good, the bad, and the ugly. I see them all dance together in my mind, changing partners, speeding up and slowing down in their contributions, and all adding to the total transformation of the dance floor. It all just makes it hard for me to sit still, and not stretch or sway, back and forth, and have my mind reach for more interesting and relevant info. I wonder how many drugs they would use to shut me up and calm me down and plop me in the corner these days if I was still a young boy in school. You can’t disturb the herd. You can’t disturb the ranchers who protect, and fatten, and slaughter the herd. You can’t even be yourself in silent swaying opposition. I believe that the ADD and ADHD (whatever you want to label them) children are graces sent from God to deliver the world from its current state of madness; to restore natural order. Unfortunately, the herd and the ranchers just can’t take a chance that might allow that to happen. Well, who knows how the battle for and against natural order will end. I certainly have my theories. In the meantime, I will continue to watch and observe and stretch and sway and let my mind continue to expand and reach for the relevant and the intriguing. Maybe, just maybe, along the way, I can unshut up and uncalm and unplop, a few like minded souls; souls, who might be just as foolish as my swaying self and also ADD/ADHD enough to try and help save the world. I hope so.